The RING!

thank you :)

bob dylan

album: the times they are a changin

this is what i know

hey i just wanted to tell you that i finished my paper today while i was in class and she gave me an extention until thursday so i have time to make it better. the walden paper i wrote a couple of weeks ago she said was my best paper of mine she has read so i was pretty happy so yay for the A on that. I know that we dont write on our blog like this but i just wanted you to know now and not have to wait until later to tell you, partly for fear of losing the guts because yes i can talk to you all day long but i still get nervous when youre right in front of me. adam, i love you so much and i love our plan, i love what we are doing, i love how we work and how i can only talk to you about how hard all of this is for me right now. i just want to be the best person i can be for you so you feel like this is really what you want to do, and when things get hard and i feel like this, i dont what you to leave, and you did help last night but reassuring me that you wont leave and you do want to marry me, and i know this, i know that you are the only man i am ever supposed to be with, i know this more than anything else, that is one stable aspect some days, but i know our plan is what makes sense and really when i think about our plan and waiting, its really the only time i do have peace in my day, i know i can be difficult some days about it, but it comes from this simple place in my mind of just wanting to be with you, but the great thing about this is that i am with you. so i cant wait untill this summer and i am excited to start this part of our lives, i want you to be apart of every decision i make, i want you to be involved in any decision because this isnt just about me anymore, its about us. i thought about it last night and this morning i got a reassurance that i can finish this semester and it will work out, i can stay here and work, this is going to be difficult but i love you, and that has gotten me through worse situations so why wouldnt it get me through this? it makes me sad to think i might have to dissapoint my mom but i guess i just got to understand some deeper things with this and it will be hard but this has to happen for me, me staying here and doing what I want has to happen, i can still help her, but if i cant help myself first there is no way i can help her later. if i keep doing this and i finish school then i actually get a better job and make more money and i might actually have a future which can help her more than she sees right now. ok slight side note, last night, you said that you were going to be done with school by the time we get married, um when did that happen! i thought you still had so much time but i am so happy that you are going to be done so you can start doing something you actually want to do, this just means if nothing else i need to get my butt in gear so we dont have to stay here after you graduate because i know you want to do your masters somewhere else, but lets be honest, we can deal with that maybe after this summer. So let me tell you my game plan, finish this semester and do well in school, but at the same i am going to love you and make this relationship so much better than it already is, and work on just continuing to build this amazing relationship we already have, and i just want to make you happy. i'm going to keep my two jobs and just do macy's part time and on the weekend so i dont drive myself crazy. but adam i am going to do this, because i can do this, i just get a little scared sometimes and i am allowed to, but i just want to be better, and i want you to know i love you and i cant live my life without you, so we are going to do this together. i am so thankful i have you in my life and that was a big part of my converstaion last night with Him and part of this morning as well, He knows what we are doing and He knows i'm scared, so its ok, i just got the nudge to keep going. but thank you for last night and always being patient with me, some days i dont know how i got this lucky, and its hard for me to see through all the temporal mess somedays but its still there, i love you.

ok...so that was alot, um just so you know there in a kid two seats in front me who is wearing croc's sandels with socks, all i have to say is you are lucky i cant put him on your team :)

Excitement :)

Ok so I know I sounded like a dork but it made me think of you, so I thought we could start thinking about it :)

http://www.buzzsugar.com/2678703

thats the video for it, listen to it before you watch the video just because I want you to get your own feel before the video, sometimes videos ruin it for people, but it is still a nice video

ps. dont read the article, he's too cynical, and probably single